And these things write we unto you, that your joy may be full (1 John 1:4).

Friday, August 7, 2009

My Brokenness

This is just my opinion, but I believe that we have to experience God before He truly becomes real to us.

How do we experience Him?

One way is through our own testimony of what He has done in our lives or through someone else's testimony. We begin to experience God when we start recognizing His activity in our lives and in the lives around us.


Tuscarora, NV - Photo by Chrissy King

Have you ever had those days that just seem to be a struggle? Some days are just a constant fight for me to stay out of my flesh and fill my mind with God's goodness!

July 23 was my birthday! "A glorious and joyful day?" you might ask.

That depends upon how you look at it, in the flesh or through the Spirit.

It seems that I spent most of the day sacrificing my will for those of others I love, a good thing, but I did it with a beaten attitude. In a sense serving someone else because I knew it would honor God, but with no joy inside of me. Trying to press in, but being distracted in my spirit.

Couldn't God give me His joy?!
Isn't that a fruit of the Spirit?
Couldn't He see me in need and impart that to me?

Aaah! There beginneth the lesson, that day, for me.

After struggling all day I was on the verge of being spiritually exhausted, to the point of wondering if I was becoming depressed. (I know, not a Godly thought, but satan is predictable and he had to try.)

On the way home my wife, Ronda, asked me what was bothering me and without hesitating something deep within my spirit answered with, "I don't know. I just feel alone."

Haaa, there it was! Where did that come from!?
Well, in the process of making a short story long, I'll tell you.

We all know that life is unpredictable; it is full of ups and downs, good times and bad, and life and death. Those life experiences either draw us closer to our Father or we seek comfort in the wisdom of the world and its ways consume us.

My family has been in the business of raising horses and cattle for at least 5 generations, but over the last 3 years my partners in this have gone to be with our Lord and Savior. Leaving me to be, at times, overwhelmed with my responsibilities. When my father died, my brother and I took over those responsibilities. In December 2008 my brother left me alone here to deal with this without him. But in that process he left me with everything that now, I pray, defines who I am. Troy put me in the presence of my God in an overwhelming and glorious way through his death. (You might think that was rather sick to see it that way, but flesh and blood did not reveal that to me. I won't pretend to know God's thoughts behind His timing, but I do know that His timing is everything, it is perfect!)

Troy is my brokenness! God was preparing me, with my son's death in February 2006 and my father's death in April 2006, for what He was about to do to me through my brother's life and death in December 2008.

You see!!!! God became real to me in a powerful and glorious, super natural way in that hospital room! Not because of where I was, but because my brother was a righteous!!, redeemed!!, lover of our God!!!

I believe that some time in our life we will all, every one of us, experience a form of brokenness in our life that defines who we are in Christ. When that time comes which way are you going to turn? The world has many definitions for depression, but do they stand up to the power of the Cross!!?

I find myself revisiting my brokenness at times. Why?
"Before destruction the heart of a man is haughty; And before honor is humility" (Proverbs 18:12).
I cannot honor my God without humility first!
My brokenness then becomes a twofold blessing:

First it brings me to this humility! The realization that I totally depend on my God for everything, even my next breath! When I realize that I am nothing without Him then I am in a place where He can use me. I become available to Him.

Second, I then experience His fullness and power and my spirit screams with boldness, "But as for me, I trust in YOU, O LORD; I say, "YOU ARE MY GOD!!!!" (Psalms 31:14).

My prayer for you, beloved brothers and sisters, is that you would recognize your brokenness for what it can be. Use it to get into the presence of our God so that you can experience His powerful touch in your life and create in you a deep hunger for more of Him.

May your brokenness define God's work in your life through your declaration of it!!

TVN

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Thursday, March 19, 2009

Bronc Riding Prayer

The Lord is my strength and my shield; of nothing shall I fear.
He makes me to lie in green pastures and His presence grows near.

He breaths life into my body to bring glory to His name.
I am a warrior for Christ and rodeo is my game.

He guides me and protects me as I step into the ring.
A hedge of protection around me He'll bring.

Though lies may surround me about the fate of my ride,
But you chose my horse and in you I reside.

I know you are with me as I call for my horse.
You ride behind me to keep me on course.


Destruction pulls me forward, but on you will I lean.
My shoulders stay back and to you will I cling.

My faith is in you as I lift on my rein.
I lift to the heavens as I charge to the mane.

I hold tight to my swells like I do to your Word.
I cling to the truth in your promises I have heard.

My mind is in the middle and my spurs are a shark.
They keep reaching and striking for the perfect mark.

I am a warrior for Christ and rodeo is my game.
I spur'em for eight and give praise to your name.

By Wade Black

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Sunday, March 15, 2009

True Religion


Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world (James 1:27).

Here are some organizations that we feel do a great job of taking care of the physical and spiritual needs of children and families all across the world.

World Vision: http://www.worldvision.org/
Compassion International: http://www.compassion.com/
Life Outreach International: http://www.lifetoday.org/

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Sunday, March 1, 2009

God's Promises

My sister sent this to me. I thought it might be a good thing to post since times are tough for so many people right now. These are the things God promises us. Lately I've heard from many people that God is a verb. I love it. He is real and at work right now! This is a collection of God's promises from scripture. My sister found it in a book she had in junior high called God's Precious Promises. I hope it will remind you of the hope we have in Christ Jesus and that He makes good on His promises!
This picture was taken when we were in China at the Great Wall. It amazes me that men built this, but what I find more amazing is God's creation and what He can do through us when we surrender our hearts to Him and put our faith in Him.

Jehovah is Promise
The compounded names of Jehovah God, translated The Lord, are promises.

The Lord provides. Gen. 22:14

The Lord heals. Ex. 15:26

The Lord protects. Ex. 17:15

The Lord sanctifies. Ex. 31:13

The Lord sends peace. Judg. 6:24

The Lord of hosts offers strength. 1 Sam. 1:3

The Lord is our shepherd. Ps. 23:1

The Lord is our redeemer. Isa. 44:24

The Lord is our righteousness. Jer. 23:6

The Lord is always there. Ezek. 48:35

God The Almighty is all-sufficient. Gen. 17:1

Jehovah is "I am that I am." God is all that we need Him to be. Ex. 3:14

Have a blessed Sunday!
Amaia

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Monday, February 23, 2009

Outside boys! Open the gate.....

Turn us loose and hang on for the ride!

Nine years ago the Lord roped me around the neck and began choking me down trying to get me to turn and face for relief, to give Him my entire life. Finally after a couple of years of striking, rearing, falling down and trying to jump the pen, I decided He was not going to let up so I said, "Alright Lord, here I am, take ALL of me, use me, teach me, guide me."

The Lord then gave me Ezekiel 2, "I am sending you to....a rebellious nation that has rebelled against me; they and their fathers have been in revolt against me to this very day. The people to whom I am sending you are obstinate and stubborn. Say to them, 'This is what the Sovereign Lord says.' And whether they listen or fail to listen - for they are a rebellious house - they will know that a prophet has been among them."

He showed me a vision of me talking to some cowboys and I said, "Lord I do not know what to tell them, what will I say?" I immediately heard Exodus 4:11, "Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."

Within a few days the Lord showed me another vision. I saw myself riding out underneath the archway of one of the ranches I grew up on, the Wine Cup ranch in Nevada. Jesus was leading me and I couldn't have been more than about 2 or 3 years old. I was riding a little kid's saddle with stirrups that didn't even clear the saddle pad, on a big, old, gentle horse. I was not big enough to direct my horse so Jesus was leading me, to ensure that I kept following Him. As I rode out under the archway with Jesus leading me, I couldn't have been any happier. I remembered being an excited little kid thinking it doesn't get any better than this, riding with my Dad!

Jesus led me out under the archway and onto a map of the United States and then across the map. While He was leading me, I was bursting with excitement to be with my Father. I couldn't help but to point at Jesus and try to get everyone to look at Him. I was so proud to be with my Father. As He led me across the map, I began to get people to look at Jesus and other little kids started falling in behind us. The further He led me, I began to grow and mature in size, and more kids started following. The further we went, the older I got, and the older the kids got behind me, and the more little kids started following the string of people led by Jesus. Jesus was eventually leading a huge string of people on horses.

Over the past seven years the Lord has given me a message to deliver to cowboys and horse people. If you are interested in sharing in this vision, to use the teachings of Tom Dorrance and Ray Hunt to bring people to a personal and intimate relationship with our heavenly Father, to help people see with new eyes (Mat 13:16) and follow Jesus (John 8:12), I would love to share with you the message that the Lord has given me, that together we may use horses to make disciples of men (Mat 4:19).

If you are interested in the message that the Lord has given me, we will come and start the "40 Days to the Trainer" program with you, teach you the "Foundation for Perfection" and apply it to your horses and your life. Training for the Cross will then be committed to lifting you up with prayer and support, that God may continue to guide you and direct you, that you may be equipped to take the message the Lord has given me, add to it as the Lord leads you and teach others around you (2 Timothy 2:2).

In my prayers lately I have been thinking that there would be no greater joy in this life than to have my business be about my Father's business (Luke 2:49). To be fully submitted and supple through every area of my life that the Lord could move me at any moment in any direction; to work as a true disciple of Christ. I prayed to the Lord asking Him if this was possible, if I could do this. He then had me write down what He had given me to let this happen and what I was still lacking.

This is what I wrote down:

What I Have
1) A calling/mission
2) Like Ezekiel, a specific message to deliver to a specific group of people

3) Gifts to deliver the message
4) Desire/passion to deliver the message
5) Like Paul, credibility and a platform to speak from
6) Support of brothers and sisters in Christ to deliver the message
7) A wife/partner who shares the same compassion
8) Interest/hunger of the people to hear the message
9) Promise that He will provide me with everything I need

Didn't Have
1) Faith to step out of the boat, to take the first step

The Lord has also been giving me another scripture, Luke 10:7, "The laborer is worthy of his wages." This has been a real struggle for me. I feel much more comfortable providing for myself and working for the Lord at the same time. However, the Lord has been showing me that He wants me full time and He will provide for me. I have no idea what this looks like; all I can say is that I am taking the first step.

I have a message. If there is an interest, through the power of our Lord Jesus Christ I will teach, comfort, and council who ever is interested in hearing it. As far as money goes, I thank the Lord that He promises He will take care of us (Luke 12:22-34).

I have prior responsibilities I must finish in February, March, and April. However, starting in May I will be free to go where ever the Lord would lead me. If you feel like the Lord is calling us to you, spend a little more time praying about it. Then feel free to contact us, so we can work out the details.

God Bless,
Wade Black

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